Time to time, thinking of what has happened through this year, what rash decisions I've made, what I've done, what I've said, what I didn't do, what I've allowed to happen to myself and others, I just feel like breaking down, retreating into myself, push everyone out, put up all the walls like I did in the past.
Thankfully there are people around me caring enough to break down these walls while they still can, pulling me out, even if they are unaware that they're doing this, saving me from myself.
Simple things like dragging me to go do work, attempting to drag me to RI to eat, sitting with me in LT or class even when I attempt to isolate myself by dumping my bag in front (to the point where we girls almost always sit at the front), buying a packet of mixed mini original and green tea kit-kats, giving me lovely hugs, and the list goes on.
Thank you for caring. It makes my day easier, brighter, lighter, sweeter.
my econs notes are so crisp. haha. oops.
Chinese oral tmr.
eeps.
no one reads this space anymore. hahaha.
too bad you ain't gonna be of help in my revising for CTs, boy, or I would have dragged you somewhere whenever you're out of camp.
shall make this place useful.
Allison Iraheta sang this on AI.
Song: I Can't Make You Love Me
Artist: Bonnie Raitt
Turn down the lights;
Turn down the bed.
Turn down these voices
Inside my head.
Lay down with me;
Tell me no lies.
Just hold me close;
Don't patronize.
Don't patronize me.
Chorus:
'Cuz I can't make you love me
If you don't.
You can't make your heart feel
Something it won't.
Here in the dark
In these final hours,
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power;
But you won't.
No, you won't.
'Cuz I can't make you love me
If you don't.
I'll close my eyes,
Then I won't see
The love you don't feel
When you're holding me.
Morning will come,
And I'll do what's right;
Just give me till then
To give up this fight.
And I will give up this fight.
Chorus (1x)
and this life i did embark on.
if only i could know what my ol' brain and heart wanted..
sent my dog to boarding...wahh...